If you want to supercharge your Law Life, three little words can make all the difference.
“I need help.”
They’re not always easy to say. We lawyers tend to be self-starters and overachievers. We’re trained to have all the answers.
And yet, over the course of my 40 years in the profession, I can say without exception that the very best lawyers I’ve met—the men and women whose Law Lives were filled with purpose, profits, and peace of mind—knew when and how to ask for help.
It takes intention. It takes courage. And sometimes, I’m sad to report, it takes crashing into a wall, though I’d strongly recommend a kinder, less-painful path.
All of which brings to mind a lawyer I once represented whose career was skyrocketing until one day she found herself in the parking lot outside my office saying, “It’s over, it’s all over, how in the world has this happened?” and “Why me?”
Life in the Fast Lane
This was back when I was in private practice, defending lawyers in state bar ethics and disciplinary cases. Lawyers were mostly blue-chip clients. By that I mean, they were usually feeling blue and had a chip on their shoulder when they came to see me.
But occasionally I’d get a call from one who would utter the three magic words that could summon the rainbow from the gloom.
“I need help,” said the voice on the other end of the line.
This particular client had been a rock star since elementary school, where she won a statewide oratory contest in fifth grade and showed flashes of the athletic prowess that would soon have colleges recruiting her for softball and swimming. She breezed through law school and landed a job at a good firm, where she became a top producer and made partner in record time.
“It all happened so fast,” she said. “One day I was a new associate and the next day I was on the management committee.”
“It’s not by accident,” I said. “You work hard. You’re a good lawyer. Your firm is lucky to have you.”
“Yeah, right,” she said, and glumly picked up a piece of paper from the conference table where we sat. “Real lucky.”
The document was why she was here. It was a notice of grievance from the state bar, alleging she had neglected a case and failed to communicate with her client.
The Sweet Victory of Surrender
She thought this paper—which she waved in the air like a white flag of surrender—could be the end of her career. When I suggested it could be a beginning instead, she looked at me like I was nuts.
And before I could explain, she glanced at her watch and hopped up, saying she was late for a meeting, and rushed out of my office. I stooped to pick something up from the floor and followed her outside.
“Now what?” she said, as I approached her car.
“You dropped your glasses,” I said.
“Thanks,” she said, taking them. “I’d be lost without these.”
For a while, she just looked down at her eyeglasses. And then—as if suddenly she could see more clearly just by holding them in her hand—it all came tumbling out:
The crushing pressure she felt almost every waking hour of her life, the deadlines and drama and demands at work, the busyness at home with her husband and young children, the never-ending stress. How she’d never wanted to be on the management committee, too busy already, but of course she’d said yes because it was such an honor. Not to mention insomnia and no time for exercise, and, worst of all, she’d had a panic attack in district court, the humiliation of having the judge stop the proceedings and everyone rushing over in concern.
A Still, Small Voice
This was in the spring, which in Chapel Hill is the loveliest season. There in the parking lot, with the dogwoods ablaze and the scent of clover in the air, I scribbled the phone number for the North Carolina Lawyer Assistance Program on the back of an envelope, which I gave to my client.
“Call them,” I said. “They can help.”
She did, and they did. Because we all have our cracked places. And the cracks are how the light comes in.
Those words are from Leonard Cohen. And while I don’t think the sole purpose of life is to go around gabbing about how cracked we are, I believe growth can’t happen if we aren’t honest with ourselves, and healing won’t begin until we ask for help.
The good news is that we’re surrounded by people—friends, family, colleagues, co-workers—who want to help. It’s the reason we were called to this profession in the first place.
“Lawyer Assistance Programs are most well-known for helping lawyers and judges with drug and alcohol problems, as these problems tend to be more visible,” says Robynn Moraites, director of the N.C. Lawyer Assistance Program. “Less visible, but equally as debilitating, are issues of anxiety, burnout, depression, and work-life imbalance. The many lawyers we have worked with over the years can attest to the fact that not only do they remain successful—or become even more successful—but their overall quality of life is improved to where they actually enjoy their practices.”
Asked and Answered
My client was one of those success stories. The grievance was resolved. Her career blossomed even brighter than before. She was fortunate to work at a firm that recognized her intrinsic worth and wanted her to be healthy and happy.
Through the LAP, she joined a peer support group. She saw a counselor for coping with anxiety and setting boundaries. And she began swimming again, which she said was a type of meditation.
The last time I saw her was at a local bar meeting, where she was being installed as an officer. Addressing the group, she said her priority was wellness for every lawyer in the district.
“If you need help,” she said, strong and centered, a terrific lawyer. “Just ask.”
About the Author
Jay Reeves is an attorney and author of the recently published book The Most Powerful Attorney in the World. He is the principal of Your Law Life LLC, a coaching and consulting company for lawyers. Contact him at jay@yourlawlife.com or 919.619.2441.